Happy New Year folks!!!! Is really like what Joyce said... once a year blog.. hahaha... ok ok... I will try to blog more :) "cross fingers".

This year has been a bitter sweet year for me... I will take it from here from my previous blog..  God has been faithful.. my friends say I am a Tee-Kong-Kia however I really beg to differ.  I guess God knows at that point of time I really do in need of a job desparately and I have to thank Him, I was offered a job in an aerospace industry.. no perfect condition though.. but my colleagues are nice :)

  

How true is that, our life is like reading a book... we can always chose either to turn the page back and forth or close the book and start a new book chapter... Amos has been in my thoughts back then.. but I know deep down in my heart I already knew the truth.  Its alot more tougher than what I think our "relationship" was.  There is no two way traffic.. I have always been giving but it doesn’t mean I want to take back any, but when it comes to love it has to be reciprocated.. I just have to wish him well secretly at a corner of my heart that hope life will be better for him and Aden.  I have decide to let him go slowly, it was painful though.. sometimes I wonder what did I see in him?  Just because he is a hunk? Or was it his character that attracts me?  Or is it I sympathize his life story and I just want to "nurse him" back to wholeness?  I guess I knew the answer... We are not meant for each other.

When you find no solution to a problem, it's probably not a problem to be solved.  But rather a truth to be accepted :)  Still, thanking him for the friendship and those times he has made me smile.. Thanks for the love he showed even though it was only for awhile. True my heart was broken, and yes my eyes did cry.  But the pain is all over now because I have learned to say goodbye.

 

There is a saying that goes like this... things always happened when you least expected... I was mending my wounds.. minding my business feeling the rut of life.. boring routine from my work... getting up as early as 5am when the whole is dead asleep..  Everyday in day out ... my life is so boring.. I need someone but not just anyone.. I guess I am tired.. very tired emotionally, I need to get away and find back myself again.  Just then somehow the dating app that I have been using doesnt seems to apeal to me anymore.. another person came into my life unexpectedly.. He introduce himself as Saw from Ipoh walking in Penang.. Seriously, I have been through this app before and those guys doesnt last long.. and I was expecting him to be the same guys whom I use to know. 

I still can recall the way he introduce himself to me.. humble yet shy.. haha.. I cant believe I will talk to him, cause I can see that his character is subtle different from the "wild me" :)

We became friends and I have found him consistent in his gestures... when he say he will call he would.  Everyday without fail till now he has always been reaching out to me... Our relationship grew.. the person I have never thought I will fall in love eventually I would.

 

Saw is from Malaysia and he works in Penang, and on 15 September 2016, after "dating" over the phone we finally met..  I was so scare... alot of funny thoughts came into my mind... what if he doesnt like what he see? It will be so awkward..what if .. what if.. what if...??

When I arrived at airport to fetch him.. Some of my close friends are also excited for me and keep texting each other while I am waiting for him.. I still can recall the moment he walked out from the airport.. our eyes met and I knew it was him :) the rest is history.

For the next 4 days, we spent some quality time together.  Though it was short but it was crucial for us to know where is our relationship taking its height too.  For a very long time, I guess I have been giving and not able to receive.. Being with Saw, he not only takes cares of me, he really dotes me with simple things.  I am a simple gal where love is concern..  I am not a branded person, when he insisted to get me a Micheal Kor bag, for the first time, I really feel whole like a woman again :) I have enjoyed the fews days with him in Singapore and when its time to part goodbye.. there is always an inch of sadness.  He told me he felt say but he took it positively that every goodbye is for another reunion.

I am glad that he came into my life, even this is a LDR there is always a challenge ultimately where we will be talking about our future.. Whatever it is I have to embrace every moment I am with him and I am happy that now I understand why it didnt work out with other people but for Saw it did.

We have to manage this LRD with care.. becos of the distance and space between us, to me every call or apps are so precious.. I really cant imagine how did Joyce and Warren go through this and theirs is withstanding more than 10 years without much technology advancement! It took alot of them I guess to be consistent.. To bear being apart from each other especially during festive seasons!!! ( Dude, if you ever read my blog... I am feeling it now... haha.. I guess you only can understand how unbearable one can get when our partners are away from each other :) you are my role model... haha.. ) I hope we can be like you ultimately we just have roll over the love of my life and kiss him good nite! :)

After so much wrong twist and turns and so much heartaches from other man, finally I guess I found someone whom my soul loves!  Though the road is long and the challenges are uncertain, I pray that God will watch over us despite of our absence from each other.  This will be the new chapter, new phase in my life.  2017 will be the best year yet for us both!  

It just gets better :)

Chris.