Its Not Just About Me Anymore..

One of the luxury i have now is to rest and sleep late and wake up later... As im still in my resting mode after the operation, i managed to catch up and talk to some of my friends.

Life is full of many choices we make.. the decision we make today will either break us or make us a better person.

Recently, i was talking with a friend, and catching up with each other's life, she was relating that she actually like someone who is not a christian. I guess its not so easy for someone like her to like a guy. This man must have won her over by the things he do. I can see whenever she talks about him, sparks are in her eyes. But somehow i can understand her concern and her struggles. How many times... its our will Vs God's will, it must be hard for her to feel this way... carrying a torch for a man whom she cant be with.

I can identify with her i have been thru that before. Sometimes it really boils down to giving up our 'Isaac' before God can give us our precious. Life is always a constant struggle, how i wish i dont have to struggle and wrestle so hard. But if God say so no unequal yoke im sure He must have His reasons for everything.

When things happen, we always like to ask God why? And as if we demand an explaination from Him. But come to think of it, God is God why should He give us all the answers for life's questions? We have been spoilt :) always like a little child wanting our own ways.

Have talk to another sister too that nite, im happy for the first time there is such an openess and mutual trust between us. I see her always smiling whenever i see her but behind every smile there is lots of tears to cover up. Life has not been fair to her, its as if all life problems comes in her way and throw at her. For a moment i thought if i can turn into a fairy godmother and wand off all her fears and uncertainties away :) But good thing is she is strong and learning to trust God in every steps she takes. Sure there will be down moments, but it will not be long she will be up again. She has encouraged me to look at life at a brighter side. When u think that u have alot of problems to tackle look at over the other side there will be sure someone who is more problematic than u. But as long as God is there, we will be fine.

Life is not just about me anymore, there are so many needs to be met, hurts to be heal and i just cant sit down and wait for my mircale to happen. I just want to do my part to help whenever i can. Im sure when im putting God's Kingdom first, God will not short change me, He will fullfilled all the desires of my heart.

After hearing so many stories and struggles, i decided i want to move on further with God to another level where He wants to lead me. Somehow i could feel a change in me.. dont know how to explain it but i know changes are for the better.

I will try to help whenever i can and go the extra mile for others. Like how others have helped me to walk on with God. Life is really a journey, through ups and down ... and when i have reached my destination one day, i will hear Him say Well Done My faithful servant!