Finally Opened Up

Besides the Hong Kong trip that I will be writing much later… I guess I got to write a blog about how I feel …

I don know how to start writing… so many wonderful things has been happening recently so far.

Simon : Yes.. Simon.. im so amazed by the changes I see in him… slowly but surely God is changing him.. Recalling how the first time I saw him.. to me at that point of time I thought this man is really an ice berg, I find it really hard to talk to him…. And whats worse … I dreamt of him and yen together teasing me how fat and etc… hahah thank God its just only a dream.. infact, I was quite affected by it and there is a period of time im scare of talking to him… reason being.. im so afraid or rejection … ya.. rejection… a sense of feeling of being cast aside. But I thought to myself, I wanted to get to know him better as a friend.. therefore I took the first step out by allowing myself to be open despite I might be opening up to more wounds of rejections…

God is good… I guess.. things have improved.. and the longer I fellowship with this dear brother.. I realize tat he can be fun loving too.. All along in my heart I wanted to know his life story… ( ok ok call me KPO hahaha.. )so everytime when I hv the chance I will provoke him to tell but I didn’t succeed. Haha.. I think God answered my prayer finally… last Sunday was one of the best quality fellowship I hv spent with simon, yen, lousia, sab and not forgetting alan. I know at tat time when simon started to share his past experiences with us… it was not really an easy thing.. being a man.. and went thru so much for the past 12 yrs.. it must be hard on this brother. I can understand how is it like to be with someone for so long and then just… left. Im sure the scars that she left was a deep one and it impacted him so much.

Life is such as I always say, it always got its turns.. and I remember we cant go any lower than that when we are facing trials of testing in life… God must have a plan for him, if things doesn’t happen to be in that way… He will not come to know God and be this part of this spiritual family. God is so good to us.. He always come to us on time when we call upon him.

To me, he is opening up, and is really a big step, that is the highlight of my day .. im so thrilled by the changes that come on him. God is soooo good… and wats more on that nite alan gave his heart to Jesus.. Life has indeed become more beautiful when u know who God is..
Will write again… tonite is Simon’s nite topic… so more will be up ..

Just me.
Chris