A night to remember

I went movie last nite with my friends and i have fun then. Stay up till almost one and i reached home tired but happy. Was supposed to meet him today but i was tied up with my agenda. After home, rested awhile and he came over to pick me up and we meet up at 2.30am.

Though he is not a very good looking man on the outside but i thought what i like on the inside.
He is a man of high EQ.. haha at least i have found my match. And i feel connected with him. We went to the beach, enjoying the breeze and looked at stars... it been such a long while i feel this way. Guess our feeling towards each other are mutual. Time passes so fast, we enjoyed each other company and shared alot of things in our lives. We stay through out the nite till 5 am in the morning. During the drive home i fell asleep, guess was too tired after too much outings.. when i woke up, he is still driving... Our eyes met and there silence stood still. Though we didnt say alot of things on the way home, we understood each other feelings by just sitting next to each other.

Frankly speaking, after so long, i do really feel like a woman being love and taken care of. I was pampered under his wings. The feeling is overwheelming, but i thought to myself, is this God's best for me? Seriously i dont know... coming in terms with my emotions.. i really got to let God come in and managed. I cant afford to make any more silly mistakes or take any more blow. Thats why im prepared to give up .. He is different from me.. the sets of values we live by the morale issues.. etc..

God knows how weak i am, and im trying hard to hang on to Him. Affairs of the heart are so taxing and complicated at times, especially for a woman who can be so vunerable under the mercy of the other party.

I may not be like my friend who has many spoil of choices of man to be with.. and infact sometimes i wish i can be like her.. no worries.. man just come to sweep her heart away and do things for her etc..

but ... I do pray and hope God that God will give our heart a home soon. The future is so uncertain and its full of twist and turns... We need Him to direct our paths as we plan our steps...