Forgiveness & Love Goes Hand In Hand

Was in Joyce Meyer service today and i enjoyed every part of it. What an inspiration role model preacher she was!

She was mentioning about how we need to love ourself and take care of God's temple and be able to live with ourself so that when we have a right standing we can let the love of God flow through us to other people.

Simple truth but yet i thought its a real challenge to do! Not many people like how they look, not many people are as accomodating to other people's weaknesses.. hmm... it only just take one to change our world.

Then she shared about her story of buying a soul instead of a house for her father who had sexually abused her when she was young. Loving your enemies even if you dont feel like too. You cant give what you dont have...

I pondered long and hard over this, and many times i wanted too and i have forgiven those who have hurt me. It was a long healing journey process though. And many times i really struggled hard to forgive. Its always a constant battle of our soul, and sometimes i even woke up with cold sweat and it can be depressing to dream that what if one day i run into him in church. Will my heart be as big as what i always pray to contain those who done me wrong? Will i run away? Will i hide again? What if.. what if..

Seriously i really dont know, but i know one thing for sure if that day do really come, God will not allow me to go through things which i cant handle :)

Actually i am waiting.. waiting not to see justice done. But rather i am waiting on God, God is not someone who will short change me after what i have went through and i know that he loves to be near the broken hearted. It will be exciting to anticipate what God is about to do in my life...

But i know all my desires will come to past... its just in a matter of time :)