Today, i went purposely to go to middle road to buy this egg tart. Just becos my sister has been wanting to eat yet not chance too. I am surprised that being a very lazy me i went out such lengths to buy for her :)

hahaha.. i guess thats what kinship is all about... i always felt that im such a lousy sister. Cant really do or give much to my sister but at least this is the least i can do for her... Hope she will like it.. its very nice and tasty... and its healthy!!! Its soya bean egg tart unlike the traddition ones that we buy outside. My sister and i are very different. We live in a different world, her world is much simpler... not so much of complications unlike mine. But im glad and happy for her that she is happily married with such a supporting husband. My brother in law and I click on quite well :)

My sister and i used to quarrel alot, fight alot and somehow while growing up in two different places i tend to be jealous and envy of her being doted by my parents since young. She has her first birthday celebaration when she is at very young age while i dont. I can still remember i stared with anger and rejection from my parent as a kid thinking why am i so different from the rest of the kids? Am i not their own too?? And it took me 21 years to have one family birthday gathering for me well i guess delay is not denial sometimes.. hahaha...

Well i have gotten over the past issue and sometimes when i look back, i am so amazed that why is my heart so small at that time compare to now? Maturity takes time to develop i guess. Right now my sis and i are much closer. Though i dont really share much of my thoughts to her not becos she is not capable of handling it.. but i guess i dont really want her to carry my unseen burdens :)

I know we love each other in different ways ... and i hope God can bring her back once again! Only God can do that surgery in her heart.. and im awaiting for my whole family members to be saved. Only God can do such a mircale!