I Miss You...

I thought I heard your voice yesterday
When I turned around to say
That I loved you, than I realized
And it was just my mind
Playing tricks on me

It seems colder lately at night
And I try to sleep with the lights on
Every time when the phone rings

I pray to God it's you
I just can't believe
That we're through

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss you
It is so easy to see
I miss you and me

Is it done and over this time?
Have we really changed our minds

But it's other's love
All the feelings that we used to share
I refused to believe
That you don't care

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss you
And it's so easy to see

I've got together my senses to get there
I've been through worse kinds of weather
If it's over now, be strong
Can't believe that you're gone
I got carry over

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss you
It's so easy to see

I miss you
It's driving me crazy
I don't want to live without you.

I miss you
It's so easy to see
That you're part of me now
I miss you and me

(Sung By Klymaxx)

It's going to be over soon. He will be gone for good. Received his sms just now, he told me he will be leaving for good to KL for other business venture. I knew this day will come. Just the other day, he wanted me to go with him... My heart say "Yes" but my mind say "No". I don't think i can, my roots are here.. if i go with him, i will miss my family and friends.

But i didn't know it has come so fast. Well all good things will come to an end. Like there is a chinese proverbs that says.. " There is no forever banquet in this world, it will come to an end one day". Yes, i will miss him, i will miss the times i have spent with him. The scent of him, the smile on his face and the way we used to tease each other... i guess it will take a long while for me to get over him.

Every time when i see his own kind on streets, somehow it makes me think of him. Never felt so strong for someone for so long... it was not easy for me to open my heart ever since Amos left me for 8 years.. Some man has come along my way, some stayed some went away, but never felt this way for anyone for so long

Guess i am going to have sleepless night again for the next few weeks, i have tried hard to sleep i just cant, my mind is full of him.. i tell myself i will try not to cry, i will try not too :)

But i know i can't get him out of my mind. I keep thinking about how much i enjoy talking with him. How great he look when he smile. I daydream about him off and on all day, replaying pieces of our conversation..laughing again about funny things he said or done.

I memorized his face and the way he look at me it melts my heart. He must be someone really special, because i really can't remember when is the last time i felt so strongly about someone. Even though neither of us knows what the future holds, i know one thing for sure, he is one of the very best things that has happened to me in a long time.

Heard a saying before from the move "Indecent proposal" :

If you love someone and if you want him to he happy
Let him go, set him free
If he comes back to you in time, that means he is yours..
But if he doesn't, that means he is not yours from the start

Memories are given by God, and some are hard to forget.

I really don't know how many heartbreaks i can take before my knight appear and take me away from all the wrong people... Well... i will just wait. I'm sure he will appear one day.. just one day.. meanwhile.. i will move on and on... definitely.