GoodBye 2005...

If anyone ask me how is this year 2005 has been, all i can say its... the end of the matter is better than the begining...

Life is like a roller coaster ride, you go thru ups and down... the tall mountains and deep valleys. And the outcome of life can be quite surprising in the end.

Reflecting back on my year 2005 how is to be...

In the begining of the year, im still in my cruising mood dont really want to bother or to think about my future... i thought to myself wat kind of future will i have? My life is just so full of many narrow kind of people and i have always see my life as if i have already lived. Maybe im avoiding issues of my heart which i dont even wish to face. Im so tired to fight this battle alone. At times i used to cry myself to sleep at nite... thinking of how life can be better if i have not gone thru those moments of sadness.

Well, life has always got its turn... God is good, during April 2005, our cell has make another changes... i thought to myself, im going to be the same, change already is still the same.. so why bother.. :)

But i guess im wrong this time, God knew that i needed more than just a new cell group, He gave me more than that... He gave me good friends that surrounds me when i thought im in the bleakest.. God brought me good godly friends. He gave me a spiritual home to let me be at ease with myself. Though my cell group are not full of perfect people, they do struggle from time to time, having their own battles to fight and even got to carry the cross everyday, though its tough but i always see a positive side in them. Who says life will be better after u have become a Christian? But though life is not always perfect after all, and it may not end up wat we plan or desire... one thing i have learn is God is a good God, He is faithful. There is no doubt abt it.

I remember how i used to put an unseen protective shield around me when i got into the cell grp, i just want to attend and fullfilled my duty as a Christian, at least my consciencous wont prick me :) I hate and i dont like people to know so much about me.. not that im shy or anything, infact i can be very fun when people come closer to me. But at that point of time, i just want to be by myself and be cope in my own world.

But God knew wat i needed... He warm my icy cold heart with my new found friends.. At first i felt love from them, but i 'pretend' to be cool :) haha... but.. i cant keep cool for too long as they are really a bunch of very warm people.

On that journey last year, i get to know some new and old friends that stand by me...

Louisa : Haha.. that lady with.. frec... opps... she is someone who has a very beautiful heart. Someone who is well-love and popular with, haha... i guess most brothers would like to get close to her.. Im so amazed by the love she have for God, and she is one of the person that has help me on this recovery journey.. she is someone special and generous with her giving.. and im so blessed by having her around, im sure she will know how much i appreciate her by driving us around, it takes someone with a big heart. Im grateful to know her, though she may have own struggles but she keep on trusting and believing in God, yeah... we will wait for our mircales to come... And i just love to hang out with her.. Sometimes i wonder, just a short span of time.. how can we get so close, it seems like i have known her for a million years.. She is so amazing.. and wat else i can say about her?? haha.. Hope we can be friends for all eternity...

Sharon : An old friend who go thru many challenges... but each time she go over.. and become better. She is kind of unique... haha.. A lady with few words but yet can be impactful at times.... someone mentioned to me tat maybe her EQ is only 6 ... all i can say is i enjoyed her company... different friend for different needs, we used to rely on each other alot finanically, when each have extra money we will either bless or borrowed from each other whomever is broke first.. haha.. very bad.. but i know God will prosper us...We will not be poor for long.. She is a simple gal and yet can be sturborn at times.. No one can change her decision easily when she has make up her mind. But when once she is convinced of something.. she will go all out for it.. She is a kind of friend either u love her or hate her hahaha... she may seems to appear cool on the outside but wait till u see her when she defrost haha.. she can be as fun loving too.. im bless to have her as a friend and im sure we will have many good years ahead..

Sabrina : Well, from the start, i didnt expect Sab and i too be good friends.. she is much younger than me.. though.. ehem.. she may look around my age. haha.. Sab is also my sleeping pill.. ya she knows it and i admit it.. whenever i cant sleep.. i will turn to her and talk non stop with my silly jokes.. haha.. To me, she is a woman of strength.. she is patient, gentle and long suffering :) she is willing to hear me out whenever i call .. she understands wat im going thru each time i pour out my heart to her.. it does helps and though she cant do much, but by hearing me out it the best therapy.. she always tell me not to give up on God and move on with God.. im grateful to her friendship and all i can say is she is a surviour :) Though life has not been fair to her at times, and bad things does happen to good people, but as long as we have put our hope in God, it will not disappointed :) im sure all things will work out good to those who love God :) we will have a better life ahead...

Ling Siang : She is someone that i really look up to and admire :) she is a leader who says what she mean and mean wat she says.. She is a "backstage" person. Though she didnt really have alot of time to fellowship with us but i know she is a leader who i can count on in times of need. She is the backbone of the cell group and our i believe much of our breakthru came is because of her covered prayers for each of us.. What can i say about her? Haha.. she is someone who makes me realised my worth in God, and she mentioned to me that life is more than just finding the right one... There are so many things that we can do while waiting for the God moment man... :) i guess in the fullness of time... God will bring the right person to us :)

Im anticipating for this year 2006, i know that greater things i will do... more lives will be touched... And all the glory will be unto God :) Ok thats for all today... more will come... time to hit the sack... Good nite Jesus... Zzzzzzzzz...

Just Me,
Chris