李圣杰 - 远走高飞
爱你错了吗
为什么会受到这么多惩罚
他们说的话像针往心里扎
我心中的怕
不知该怎么做才可以放下
只不过想好好的爱一次啊
带我远走高飞
不去理会
这一个蜚短流长的世界布满虚伪
是你让我选择沉醉
繁星守侯月不能睡
只因为爱上了夜的黑
带我远走高飞
一起去追
有一个叫做幸福的世界没有泪水
我已经感觉到疲累
只想在你怀抱入睡
不在乎别人眼中是非
重新再出发
能不能让这天地不再吵杂
我的心里面安静得不像话
故事的真假
没有多余的力气去分辨他
只不过想好好的爱一次啊
带我远走高飞
不去理会
这一个蜚短流长的世界布满虚伪
是你让我选择沉醉
繁星守侯月不能睡
只因为爱上了夜的黑
带我远走高飞
一起去追
有一个叫做幸福的世界没有泪水
我已经感觉到疲累
只想在你怀抱入睡
不在乎别人眼中是非
Monday, May 19, 2008
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Take me away to you..
Take away me into your arms as i linger here with you tonight.
Take away me to you as i am here to stay.
Take me away to a far far away land where there is no other.
A place where i can be me and you can be you, being together and forget about others.
No more distractions, no pretense, no differences to mend where love constantly stands.
Could this be love or paintings in my mind?
I wonder where our road will lead us too?
Is it an end of us that will lead a beginning me?
Or a new beginning without you and me?
Only time unfold the mysteries yet untold.
So till then hold fast to our dreams and don't let go.
If fairy tales do really come true for us one day...
May we find each other at the bend of the rainbow someday.
May we find each other at the bend of the rainbow someday.
Monday, May 12, 2008
Fallen...
Cant believe it, this marks my 100th post on this blog. Have this bitter sweet feeling. Bitter as i can blog all my frustrations and feelings.. Sweet is because i like to contain happy memories :)
Sometimes i wonder anyone understand me? I guess many times i am always very often been misunderstood. What my friends see me as what i am is not what they get? Maybe to them, i am just a fun, easy going gal.. someone who values friendship. Its true to certain extend. But this is only part of what they are seeing me. I have been hiding... running... how long am i going to run? How long am i going to hide what is within me?
I got a ride home last week from a friend after a run... and she posed me a question, wondering why there are so many broken families and break up among people.. Maybe to her coming from a good family background she may not be able to comprehend as all her life she has been living a shelter and protected life from lack, uncertainities, fears, shame etc... its a good thing being raised in a such a wonderful family but not many people i will say to have such a priviledge. But what matter most how we end our life, though the start maybe a tough one :) End of the matter is always better than the beginning...
Sometimes in life, you dont really have what you wish for... screw up again big time this time. That night i was with him. Seriously i really dont know why i was with him... we came so close yet so far. We are so different in culture, background, colour of skin, yet some kind of forces brought us together. Know him for almost 4 years... kind of tic-a-tac relation and i wonder where are we heading?
Yes i enjoy his company, i enjoy having someone to hold, to be cherish and value as a woman, to have fun with, someone just to be there to cook and clean up and doing things together.. but after all the excitement has gone... when the curtian has drawn away reality hits. The truth hurts but this time i guess i have no regrets. I have no second thoughts about us. We know the rule of the game... Yes i cried to sleep last nite, the pain in my heart is indescrible, feeling is so unbearable.
Tried to talk to a friend today but i held back... i cant trust anyone... i feel so withdrawn and alienated... i havent been sharing much about my life since one of my avid listener is busy with motherhood... i am not blaming her.. Everyone has priorities i understand, everyone is moving on with their own life, who would want to care? Even if they wanted too.. i dont want to impose them anymore... I know my friends love me, but i find it hard to accept it.. will they still love me after they know the other part of me? Will they still accept me after the dark is brought out of light? :)
Yes, i am afraid for the first time about peoples' opinion... hearing them saying why u do it again? why u dont cherish yourself?? etc... u have cheapen your call etc... i dont need them to tell me what i already know, but who really can understand what i am going through? I am so afraid to share, words will spread like wild fire... I cant trust anyone... i am so afraid of that look of condemnation.
Suddenly i realised how that adultery woman must have felt... not that i was in any adultery, but from the perception point of her view i stood, i finally understand her position. I really do understand. When i get to heaven, if i see her there i will go and find her :)
I know how it feels like when u need someone to hold yet you find no one true. All those man are after something else and after use... she has been discarded, put away with... and i can understand how she must have felt. Dirty, lonely, separated, misunderstood by friends and people around her just dont understand why she cant love and respect herself ( i am sure her friends will ask her to wait for a better man to come along, but yet she didnt. Sure i believe she has tarry hard and long enough, but yet she give in to temptation..)
I really can identity how miserable she must have felt one man after another... i am sure its not a heat of passion, i believe she is more sober than anyone else... she just needed someone to hold to have a sense of belonging...
But thank God, at least Jesus didnt cast the first stone at her. If He has done that, i guess He will start casting stones to many. Yet He pick her up and cleanse her, forgive her and asking her to move on and sin no more. Thank God for such a wonderful saviour. I know if im in her shoes, i will have a portion of His forgiveness too...
Sometimes when i look at my friends, though they may face different trials and challenges, but their life is much simpler i feel. Maybe i am really asking for it. Its all about choices we make. What we do today determine our tomorrow. This time i wonder do i still have detours.. U-turns to go? I felt dead, among the living...
My heart is heavy, I will try not to cry again tonight...i know we will still meet, i know life goes on.. but we know it will have no end... letting go is hard, forgetting is even harder... Come what may, what have i not been through? I have been through the worse and yet i have survive :)
Cant believe it, this marks my 100th post on this blog. Have this bitter sweet feeling. Bitter as i can blog all my frustrations and feelings.. Sweet is because i like to contain happy memories :)
Sometimes i wonder anyone understand me? I guess many times i am always very often been misunderstood. What my friends see me as what i am is not what they get? Maybe to them, i am just a fun, easy going gal.. someone who values friendship. Its true to certain extend. But this is only part of what they are seeing me. I have been hiding... running... how long am i going to run? How long am i going to hide what is within me?
I got a ride home last week from a friend after a run... and she posed me a question, wondering why there are so many broken families and break up among people.. Maybe to her coming from a good family background she may not be able to comprehend as all her life she has been living a shelter and protected life from lack, uncertainities, fears, shame etc... its a good thing being raised in a such a wonderful family but not many people i will say to have such a priviledge. But what matter most how we end our life, though the start maybe a tough one :) End of the matter is always better than the beginning...
Sometimes in life, you dont really have what you wish for... screw up again big time this time. That night i was with him. Seriously i really dont know why i was with him... we came so close yet so far. We are so different in culture, background, colour of skin, yet some kind of forces brought us together. Know him for almost 4 years... kind of tic-a-tac relation and i wonder where are we heading?
Yes i enjoy his company, i enjoy having someone to hold, to be cherish and value as a woman, to have fun with, someone just to be there to cook and clean up and doing things together.. but after all the excitement has gone... when the curtian has drawn away reality hits. The truth hurts but this time i guess i have no regrets. I have no second thoughts about us. We know the rule of the game... Yes i cried to sleep last nite, the pain in my heart is indescrible, feeling is so unbearable.
Tried to talk to a friend today but i held back... i cant trust anyone... i feel so withdrawn and alienated... i havent been sharing much about my life since one of my avid listener is busy with motherhood... i am not blaming her.. Everyone has priorities i understand, everyone is moving on with their own life, who would want to care? Even if they wanted too.. i dont want to impose them anymore... I know my friends love me, but i find it hard to accept it.. will they still love me after they know the other part of me? Will they still accept me after the dark is brought out of light? :)
Yes, i am afraid for the first time about peoples' opinion... hearing them saying why u do it again? why u dont cherish yourself?? etc... u have cheapen your call etc... i dont need them to tell me what i already know, but who really can understand what i am going through? I am so afraid to share, words will spread like wild fire... I cant trust anyone... i am so afraid of that look of condemnation.
Suddenly i realised how that adultery woman must have felt... not that i was in any adultery, but from the perception point of her view i stood, i finally understand her position. I really do understand. When i get to heaven, if i see her there i will go and find her :)
I know how it feels like when u need someone to hold yet you find no one true. All those man are after something else and after use... she has been discarded, put away with... and i can understand how she must have felt. Dirty, lonely, separated, misunderstood by friends and people around her just dont understand why she cant love and respect herself ( i am sure her friends will ask her to wait for a better man to come along, but yet she didnt. Sure i believe she has tarry hard and long enough, but yet she give in to temptation..)
I really can identity how miserable she must have felt one man after another... i am sure its not a heat of passion, i believe she is more sober than anyone else... she just needed someone to hold to have a sense of belonging...
But thank God, at least Jesus didnt cast the first stone at her. If He has done that, i guess He will start casting stones to many. Yet He pick her up and cleanse her, forgive her and asking her to move on and sin no more. Thank God for such a wonderful saviour. I know if im in her shoes, i will have a portion of His forgiveness too...
Sometimes when i look at my friends, though they may face different trials and challenges, but their life is much simpler i feel. Maybe i am really asking for it. Its all about choices we make. What we do today determine our tomorrow. This time i wonder do i still have detours.. U-turns to go? I felt dead, among the living...
My heart is heavy, I will try not to cry again tonight...i know we will still meet, i know life goes on.. but we know it will have no end... letting go is hard, forgetting is even harder... Come what may, what have i not been through? I have been through the worse and yet i have survive :)
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