Closure

The stale air after the rain lingers around the street as i walk back home that night. If there is rainbow after the rain i wonder how may rainbow will i see?

As i walk back that night alot of things came into my mind.. once again my heart is still missing him. I miss having him around, i miss every part of him. His wit, his sense of humor everything about him i am still missing.

I think fate likes to make spot people... feel so wrong yet so right. Sometimes i wonder why do we have to make such a choice?

It is time to move on. I bid him goodbye through sms and im getting out of this tic-a-tac kind of relations. However, he will always have a special place in my heart. Memories are what he left behind. I think about him still...

There will always comes a point where friendship has grown and has taken into another new height. But what if it doesnt goes into the next level. Both will feel stuck and hard to move on.

Actually in a relationship there is no right or wrong or who is giving more or lesser. Its really both parties complementing each other's strength and weakness working towards it.

Its my fault. I feel that its all my fault. If I have become .... maybe there is hope. But he is not God he dont look at my heart. He is still a man after all.

I dont want to explain, dont wish to hear any more...

Dont come and tell me u understand how i feel, dont come and tell me u empathsie me, dont come and tell me what i have already know. Im sick of hearing it!

Im just tired... not looking any further... just want to find a place rest and hide...

Love That Goes A Distance

Finally... the season for marriage has come to an end... well at least for this year... hahaha... i can really count the numbers of wedding i have been attending since last year... and each wedding is differently unique in its own ways and im sure the best is always save for last. I am indeed priviledge to go through just one more for this year i hope.. haha... and finally i can take a breather after this one...

Joyce came into our big family E375 sometime back (pardon my loss of memory...hehehe)... At first i thought that she is just an ordinary member who just came to our big spiritual family and just be one of us... However as times evoles... thing started to change and we become friends :) we have become closer indeed as we make time for each other...

Friendship blossom not only between us and some friends too.. Always enjoy her company and her creativity always amazes me... Then came Warren... her better half.. a New Zealander who talks like BBC but never was one..haha.. he is witty, unpredicting... can never get enough of food and yet so slim... hehehe... always sleepy... haha...

I attend their wedding this month and i thought love can never be sweeter than this. They have went through so many things together and finally distance doesnt deter them. It takes tenancity and much committment to hold a relationship together and i know that with all the things that they went through marriage has certainly reached a new height for both...

So i decided to pen this poem down... dont know whether if they got the chance to see.. but at least just want to extend my love and friendship to them... The Young Ones... this poem is for you..

Love That Goes A Distance...

If love can goes a distance, let his heart goes with you...
If love can transcend many miles, let both heart be so true..
All your longings has come to an end,
And now finally the time is here.

As you both know its the begining of your new life together
and many good times you will endear.

Knowing your marriage will be forever blissful,
as you both commit your lives before God grateful.

All the best for your new life dude and dudette :) and i know that fairy tales just started here!

GoodBye 2007

I bid my last goodbye 2007 in my room last nite. It so unlike me i thought... used to be that "wild" party gal who will not missed any parties and countdown, and for a moment i thought what is happening to me? Has this wild horse gone tame?? Hahah...

Change. Its a factor. This is what i have decided to do this year. Changes is always around us and i cant expect to have a different result by doing the same thing everytime.

At least one thing i done it right is to cross over 2008 with God last nite. Nothing spectular.. expected something dramatic.. but no Gabriel angel or some great light that comes shining into my room.. (hmm.. my imagination runs wild) but i know God is there. He is in my room crossing over 2007 with me to the next. I felt His strong, sturdy hands leading me into the New Year.

Though i was alone but i am never lonely. I know that He hears me. Every prayers that i have make i know He listens. I know this year is going to be the best year yet.

Forget about the good, bad and the ugly of 2007. Its all over and a new year has come.

So many changes come within 2007, the pace is so fast that i cant even take a breather... friendships started to change. Status started to change... and all these changes are really beyond our control sometimes.

The friends you thought you will have forever seems to be drawing a distance.. promises that was make seems not to find answer. Everyone, every situation, everyday seems to be changing. There is no such things as forever. Time to wake up! Time to face the hard fact truth about life!

Welcome change, time to bid my own bubble world goodbye.

This new year will be better. It will not be the same.

So how do you readers react to change?

All i can say is the only constant thing in life is CHANGE ~ Edwin Louis Cole.