Facing Your Giants

Anticipated waking up early to go service as today is one of my favourite Pastor Phil coming to town.. While i was mending my own business and looking out for the LATE COMERS to come i got the chance to talk to one of my cell group member :)

Never really have much time to catch up with her but we somehow strike a conversation... the things that she said had somehow have left a mark and she ministers to me though its just a short span of time... i have tried to held back my tears hard enough hoping that i looked "normal".

I think she understood how i felt all along inside.. All the suppression that was held inside came out under the swept carpet...

Many times we wanted God to intervene in our life.. Be it in our career, family or love life.. but as God starts to take over the driver seat of our life, be it an unanswered prayer... life trials ... challenges ahead of us that is not fulfilled yet, we somehow tend to wonder whats wrong? Is God there? Why is He so silent? Is He punishing me and not wanting to give me what i desired?

My friend mentioned that when God put testings ahead of us, He often love to test our desires... and often our desires are our weakest weakness and its always the one that tempt us most...

And with this, i thought of how our "Isaac: have to be placed on the altar - slaughtered.

I wonder what went through on Abraham's mind that day when he took Isaac on the Moriah moutain? He has been asking God for just a son from sarah's womb and how he has waited for the promise to come.. and eventually it came..

But now God is testing Abraham's love. It must be tough on him. I guess the day before he took Isaac, he must have pleaded with God and how he wished that he may have heard wrongly...he must be turning and tossing on his cushion wooden bed feeling sleepless that night. Finally obedience took over..

He must be wiping his tears silently on his both sleeves without letting Isaac see unknowingly as they proceed to the mountain. Tears of joy becoming tears of burnt offering... But despite of it all Abraham hope in God for a mircale.

The rest is history... when love is being tested and purified under fire.. God make a way, by sending a ram caught in the thorns, in exchange of Isaac's place. God have saved the day once again :)

How many of us are like Abraham willing to love God to the extent of giving up Isaac... i really dont know... Its a path way that i am still learning... Leting Go and leting God can be very scary at times. He will bring you places where you have not been.. Its quite a journey though.

Many our us are living at crossroads... u are standing in the middle hoping that other people will give you a push or a directions to lead you to the right place.

Throughout all these years i came to realise one thing. Actually all of us know where we should be heading too and how to get there. But lazyiness, procrastination over took our passion, faith and belief in God.

In the end we tend to do the things we like and hated to pay the price so as a result, people started to "run away" from God... Be it physcially or emotionally... all this time keep running until you come to a place where you reached a dead end.

God is a good God. I know that He always give us many chances... but i do fear when our chances are run-out, He will not strive with us forever and when the last trumpet had sound... i wonder where can we run? Where do we hide? We can run all our lives.. but we cant hide from Him. King David even say, even if he make his bed in hades.. God is there.

I hope is a wake up call to those who are running away from our own self and most importantly God. And to me i guess i have to face my own music squarely :)

Grasshoppers stop hopping... its now time to face your gaints...

THE SONG IS STILL THE SAME

You say faith knows no fear
But my fears has led me here
So we stand and fight
So we hope we're right

You're afraid of my questions
I fear to know the answers
So silence is the game we play
So we vote loyalty to stay

You say I'm in His image
Yet I see this invisible cage
So I'm banging hard the walls
So i struggle not to fall

You say I'm not alone
But I dun wanna be a clone
Yes I wanna be like You
But I just can't lose myself

All this time I sing this song
The song that You once gave
But now I hear a different beat
They say the song is still the same

I close my eyes, I know You're there
But where am I today?
The white, the black that I once know
Now everything turns grey

It's the truth in their lies that hurts me
And for this truth alone I stay
When I can't feel, I reason
when reasons fail, I break

And now what's ever left inside of this broken trusting man
Still in need of a savior
Still in need of Your scarred hand

(Lyris by KC)

Saw KC blog and its his new song... I like the lyrics that was written.. Guess dont need to probe any further. The lyrics has said it all.

Life itself is a constant struggle... but at least we still can hope in God.